Just a bit of blogging about one of my favorite hobbies: Photography :)

 

Tummy Lovin Tuesday 1

It has come to my attention that apparently women who do not look like they should be strung up in the dinosaur exhibit at the Museum of Natural History. I am what would be considered 'Plus sized'. The only thing that I think is 'plus' about me is the fact that I have above average breast size, so in that respect, I can understand why companies wouldn't think to make clothes that fit me perfectly. But when I have to deal with only finding size 00 and 0 pants in stores, I get irritated. WHO THE HELL IS A 0???? How can you be a Zero??? That's the absence of movement from the middle of the number line??? I miss when clothes were sized to ACTUAL MEASUREMENTS!!!! No one has a measurement of 0....Its not possible. Why cant people accept that. Please think about some of the original bombshells... Marilyn Monroe, Grace Kelly, Elizabeth Taylor, these women are amazingly beautiful and were any of them ever a size 0???? NOPE!! I really wish that I could reach out to all of these young girls having to deal with seeing women like Paris Hilton, Smookie or Snoki or whatever her name is, Lindsey Lohan and Kate Moss, doing drugs and sinking themselves into oblivion and that is what we are telling girls that they need to look and act like to be socially acceptable. How can we live with ourselves??? I'm slightly relived that there is a wish in the world to be healthy now and not always eating take-out. But when do we realize that there is a fine line between healthy and a health -nut?? When you force yourself to work out for an hour for eating a handful of skittles something needs to be changed. Our country needs to learn to glorify reality... not unreality TV.

I love my tummy, and I'm proud of my stretchmarks, my scars my 'defects' and my love handles. If any of you disagree, please feel free to remove your fingers from your throat and shove them up your ass.

Love- Christina!

Work

Ok, so I'm not going to mention where I work because that would be unprofessional, but I swear, I really want to punch people. My boss's boss said that she is going to fire everyone if we don't bring up our customer service,ind you I am a FUCKING BALL OF SUNSHINE!!!! Everyone who comes is either an asshole or an idiot, but do I react. No, I hold my tongue. And somehow I get lumped in with the rest of the assholes that have no care for professionalism.

Can someone please tell me what the fuck that this is all about. I'm tired of being treated like crap and being paid minimum wage. I really really hate this, but there doesnt seem anywhere else thats hiring. Its slowly killing my cheerfulness.
But on a happier note the guy I am currently crushing on came into work today to talk to me and give me hugs, It was just the boost I needed to get through the rest of my crappy day.

Life as it seems to be.

Finishing with my exams seems like it should be so much more satisfying... but its not. All I know is that I really dont know what the fuck I'm doing with my life. I'm just going through the motions, walking through the part, nothing seems to penetrate my... heart. LOL I seriously love that episode of Buffy, ok, no more kidding around. Life really just feels like everything is crumbling a bit. My fingers are clutching to the cracks in this foundation and I know that I should let go but I can't.  I wish I could just go with the flow, but it seems so hard. I'm freaking out about finding a place to live, about getting a good enough job, about how the hell I'm going to afford just living.  I just hope that everything is going to work itself out in the end. 
So in other news, things seem to be looking up in the romance department, not gonna go too much into into detail cause I dont want to get ahead of myself. These past two relationships, if you can call them that has really left me with a bad taste in my mouth. Too many times I've been made to feel like I'm to blame for any sort of issue that arises and I cant deal with that anymore. But Im going to try and be optimistic and be happy. Let's see how this works out.

Listening To: Adele (once again)
Reading: Fanfiction
Watching: 1000 ways to die