Finishing with my exams seems like it should be so much more satisfying... but its not. All I know is that I really dont know what the fuck I'm doing with my life. I'm just going through the motions, walking through the part, nothing seems to penetrate my... heart. LOL I seriously love that episode of Buffy, ok, no more kidding around. Life really just feels like everything is crumbling a bit. My fingers are clutching to the cracks in this foundation and I know that I should let go but I can't. I wish I could just go with the flow, but it seems so hard. I'm freaking out about finding a place to live, about getting a good enough job, about how the hell I'm going to afford just living. I just hope that everything is going to work itself out in the end.
So in other news, things seem to be looking up in the romance department, not gonna go too much into into detail cause I dont want to get ahead of myself. These past two relationships, if you can call them that has really left me with a bad taste in my mouth. Too many times I've been made to feel like I'm to blame for any sort of issue that arises and I cant deal with that anymore. But Im going to try and be optimistic and be happy. Let's see how this works out.
Listening To: Adele (once again)
Reading: Fanfiction
Watching: 1000 ways to die
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